Thanks to everyone for your kind comments. If my heart hurts the way it does - I can only imagine the family of those directly involved. She is going to be cremated with her son and the service is next weekend - I will travel home for that for some closure. The anger I feel is off the chart with the drivers trial is scheduled later this month.
Food has not been good. I have been eating everything and anything. The peanut butter has been endless, m&m's, I find comfort in getting up and eating at 2am. Right now it fills me - when I wake from this haze and realize the damage that I have done - I will have to get back on track. I guess I have a problem - I turn to food to deal with stress, grief, and pain. I'm still with you folks - but this is just a real crumby time for me.
I grew up in a very small town. I graduated grade 9 with 13 people - and grade 12 with 25 after being combined with another smaller rural school. All of my memories growing up involve this lost friend. The New Kids on the Block concert, the big bangs, the boys, the sneaking out of house at night - but not replacing the screen on the door properly and getting in trouble. So - yeah it hurts. But I think that the anger outweighs the grief. I am very lucky to have a wonderful family and a wonderful, supportive husband who will let me have my time.
2007-12-10
Thoughts provided by Christine at 2:30:00 PM
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19 kind comments:
OMG hun.. I am so sorry for you loss... what a terrible terrible tragidy.
Big hugs
Chubbymum
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Hey sweetie. I am hear if you need someone to talk to. I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. I hope you will find peace and forgiveness one day.
I know that kind of pain as my brother was killed .... every memory, good and bad, flow back .... just cherish them and don't bottle it up .... it does nothing for you! Believe me!!
You will get back on track when you are ready ... you don't need to worry about food right now! Keep healthy!! ((hugs friend))
So sorry to hear about the loss you're feeling. We're all here for you if you need anything and we're keeping you in our thoughts and prayers.
Im so sorry to hear of this Christine, it is incredibly sad. I do not know them and it brings tears to my own eyes.
Take care
Thinking of you
Emx
We are all human, and sometimes life gets in the way.
I'm so sorry, I hope things get better soon
My heart goes out to all who are mourning this loss - so sad.
I am so sorry to hear about your loss....how very tragic. My heart is heavy for you.
This is awful. You are in my thoughts.
What a horrible thing to have happened.
I am so sorry for your loss. They were such a young family.
It's such a huge loss.
My mother died as a result of a car accident when I was 15.
I am with you as far as turning immediately to food for all the wrong reasons. I'm also sometimes a 2am eater.
Thank you for sharing your pain and letting us into your world even though it hurts a lot right now.
I am so sorry to hear about this Christine. My heart goes out to you and your firends family. I just can't even imagine what they must be going though.
I don't know if this is the time to worry about peanut butter and m&m's. You have proven that you have made a life change with your eating but sometimes we all need a little comfort food.
My thoughts are with you sweetie. Big hugs.
I am truly sorry for your loss.
Prayers!
Hun you just have to do what feels right at the moment, if it means working a little bit harder when your head is in the right space then so be it. You will get through this xxx
I hope for everyones sake that the stupid truck driver gets everything he deserves.
Words just can't express my thoughts at what you are all going. So very sad.
Don't beat yourself up! Look after your heart first, the rest will follow later when the time is right!!
Hugs!!
My wife's sister, husband, and 12 y.o. daughter were driven off an embankment by a truck driver about 7 years ago and died. All the truck driver got was a few citations for negligent driving. Very sad when these things happen, especially when children are involved.
This is so sad. The sudden, unexpected losses seem to hurt more. We had a big loss this past summer when two very dear people in my family drowned. The effects both mentally and physically were surprising to me as I'd never had that kind of loss before. Don't be surprised if your body reacts more than you expect. I completely missed a period but was not pregnant. Then the next month everything was back to normal.
Weird.
{{Hugs}}
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